I’m alone, I’m feeling very tired, sad, a lots of pain  come out, I let me cry after days of “being a strong girl”, I’m not, I’m weak, and sensitive more than normal. I just observe who are near me today: no human being, just the invisible! http://m.cosmopolitan.fr/,comment-rencontrer-l-amour-de-sa-vie,2510840,1832644.asp It’s raining, it’s pouring, but sun is here behind the clouds, courage is not enough, I need hugs from human beings! I sent so much emails, letters, I made phones calls to

I  like when people treat others with unconditionnal love even if it’s virtual. I doesn’t matter about the food,  I know some  raw food people who are really selfish especially my last contacts with American. I don’t want to live in USA, because I don’t like the American system and I’m not American citizen, I’m an European woman and I love to be in countries where I can move freely without be stressed by a visa or green card formalities.

Summary of my drama I lost my mother the day of “happiness”, May 1st 2010. I can remember the sadness… I felt devastated. For the first time my life became a nighmare. I realized how dear my mum was to me! She was an angel with others angels in the sky or sea, she fought very hard against breast cancer, she healed twice because of living food and this convinced me of the power of raw foods and juice fasts.

I know a lot of brothers and sisters raw vegan gardeners: we are in the path! You are not alone anymore!! We are pioneers, as are all the Raw vegan gardeners. The story C’ced I’m super happy to be a Spiderwoman between raw vegan gardeners who are isolated in their lands. I have watched many videos, and I have traveled and met them. I feel sad for them because their lives are a paradox:  they use YouTube to post their

4 years  of work, love and life! God and C’cru are my Valentin’s and Nature are their arms around me! Here a cherry’s angel who is fighting! Love is my natural way of life! and C’cru is a plant, I have created since the 14th of February 2008 for us!

I need to find a land, build my home, have chidren, plant fruits trees and welcome people in need of home! My goal to have so much money is buy land to preserve Nature, like a conservatory and a nursery for old varieties which Montesantos doesn’t produce=) Tonight,  I filmed my last pumpkin from my garden I carried them in my  car, I always my  food while traveling by car (since september I have recolted old varities of pumpkin I